As many of you are probably wondering, I'm not exactly in my best state right now. Along with the passing of Jason David Frank, a beloved role-model of mine and someone I wanted to meet dearly, and Kevin Conroy, AND Nicki Aycox, it makes it very difficult to continue focusing on building your own career by watching someone else's come to a halting stop. Death is no joke and it's been one of the biggest things on my mind lately. We have lost so many people in our community that I am unable to even pretend that everything is alright--because it's not. BUT we have to remember that that is WHAT life is about. Leaving behind a legacy only you can build. I'm so honored to have met the people I have met in this lifetime. Even on my worst day, I'm still beyond blessed than other times in my life. I hope this message comes to the right people which is the same thing I have to say about this novel. I hope I leave behind a legacy. Not necessarily for people to remember me (although that'd be great) but to remember what I stood for, which is our Lord Jesus Christ. At least I hope people see that. I've been so conflicted. It's been hard.
On the other hand, I have been allowing myself to feel more which has only poses more questions especially regarding existence. It does offer for some good brain juice for writing internal dialogue for characters in future works however. I hope to begin writing more. I hadn't realized I had hand-crafted 25 props for the book trailer and really wearing myself thin by staying awake until 2am the day of filming. Our brilliant cameraman will have the second half of footage to me as soon as possible and it will be onto phase 2 of our project. These people I'm definitely blessed for knowing! After that, we'll be making some more posts and then the trailer itself most likely closer to the summer.
I just want to ensure it turns out RIGHT more so than getting it done by a certain TIME.
To make this post short and as sweet as possible despite the opening context I do have this to say:
I may not know you personally, but I know that God is real. It just makes sense. I can't really explain, but if I leave this world before any of my friends and family, I don't want them questioning where my soul ends up. I don't want them to worry about my eternity. God gifted us with the spirit of adoption for any and all who are willing to accept and my soul is willing. Only to HIM do I attribute my success and I can't wait to see what happens next. May that fire to inspire that is within you blaze so brightly you don't even recognize your own reflection.
Thank you all. Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year!